celebrian666

School has been taking up so much of my time, i feel as though i have no life outside of it. However, i am learning a lot and i know that in the end it will be worth it. A problem, though, people tend to forget you when you stop actually having a social life or in my case when you move. Even though moving had put me closer to old friends from years ago, i feel as though we don't really know each other anymore. Outside of school those labels separate once good friends without common meeting spaces, like drama or creative writing class, those friendships fall apart under the strain of not associating with those outside of your little career gro

I feel like I've been in a cave avoiding the world for the past few months. Part of it is realizing who are my real friends and who disappear when times are tough, the other part is being fired so my employer doesn't owe me or the 45 other people unemployment. But life is looking up, I'm self employed now and making more than my previous employer had me thinking I'm worth. I've also discovered that when you put two really good friends in an apartment together they will eventually rip each other to shreds for the very hope of self preservation and because of this thought I can now forgive my actions as well as the actions of my once friend a

Another year has come and it will probably pass the same way. This up coming weekend i'll be turning 20 and i realise after all these years i'm no where near where i had planned to be and it wasnt that my plans where too out there, because they were quite grounded. So as my birthday comes closer and closer i'm starting to realise that i need to work harder at my goals and not let anything get in the way. i've put alot on hold so my whole family could get back on their feet. So here's to plans revitalised and a not so distant future.